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Kinjo earns shot at 4th world title, but it won't be part of sister act

By Ken Marantz

TOKYO, Japan (May 26) -- It may not be Paris, but given what it took for Risako KINJO to get there, the Albanian capital of Tirana will do just fine.

Already denied a chance at winning a third Olympic gold medal, Kinjo created her own chance for some consolation by earning a shot at a fourth career world title by qualifying for Japan's team to this fall's Non-Olympic Weight Class World Championships.

The only downside for Kinjo is that younger sister Yukako TSUNEMURA won't be accompanying her as a competitor, meaning there would be no repeat of their sibling double at the 2021 Tokyo Olympics where they won golds together under their maiden name of KAWAI.

Kinjo needed a dramatic, last-second victory in a playoff over 18-year-old Sakura ONISHI to secure a ticket at women's 59kg to the non-Olympic worlds to be held October 28-31 in Tirana.

jpnRisako KINJO celebrates her victory in the 59kg playoff over teenager Sakura ONISHI. (Takeo Yabuki / Japan Wrestling Federation)

That win avenged a loss earlier in the day to 2023 world U17 champion Onishi during the Meiji Cup All-Japan Championships -- the second of two domestic qualifiers for Tirana held May 23-26 in Tokyo -- to set up the playoff.

"My desire to go to the World Championships was so strong," Kinjo said. "If I didn't do it, I would be regretting it for the next year. It was a desperate situation."

Tsunemura, whose marriage on New Year's Day got off to an ominous start when a devastating earthquake struck her home prefecture hours later, saw her bid at 65kg end with a quarterfinal loss to Miwa MORIKAWA, who went on to win the title and a playoff to get the chance to regain the world gold she won in 2022.

Japan will also have strong representation in the two other women's weight classes, with newly crowned Asian champion Moe KIYOOKA at 55kg and 2022 world 68kg silver medalist Ami ISHII at 72kg -- teammates at Ikuei University -- also making it through the playoff route.

The former Kawai sisters have been through hard times since their dual triumph in Tokyo, where Risako captured the 57kg gold and Yukako triumphed at 62kg.

Both took time off after the Olympics, with Risako getting married, then giving birth to a daughter in May 2022. By the time both returned to the mat, formidable newcomers had emerged in the race to the Paris Olympics.

Both fell in the qualifying process -- Kinjo to world 57kg champion Tsugumi SAKURAI and Tsunemura to world 62kg bronze medalist Sakura MOTOKI (notably also Ikuei wrestlers). Tsunemura also made a long-shot attempt at 68kg, but came up short there as well.

"After the Tokyo Olympics, I couldn't win for awhile," Kinjo said. "It made me realize just what a big deal it is to win at the Olympics."

After giving birth, Kinjo returned to the mat in late 2022 at 59kg in preparation for a run to Paris at 57kg. She won the title at the Emperor's Cup All-Japan Championships that year, but her bid for Paris ended at the 2023 Meiji Cup. She also lost a playoff at 59kg for the 2023 World Championships.

In December last year, Kinjo retained her 59kg title at the Emperor's Cup, which earned her a ticket to the Asian Championships last April in Bishkek. She would take home a bronze after being dealt a tough 1-1 loss by world champion Qi ZHANG (CHN) in a quarterfinal limited to activity points.

As Emperor's Cup champion, Kinjo would have automatically clinched a place on the team to the non-Olympic worlds with a victory at the Meiji Cup. But Kinjo was dealt an 8-4 loss in the semifinals by Onishi, in which she gave up a 4-point front body lock throw. When Onishi won the title, it set up a rematch in the playoff.

Kinjo was emboldened by recalling the grueling qualifying process that she went through to get to the Tokyo Olympics when she had to endure classic battles with four-time Olympic champion Kaori ICHO to earn the spot.

"Before the playoff, I thought, 'The qualifying for the Tokyo Olympics was a hundred times tougher. To have gone through that, nothing seems difficult."

jpn2Risako KINJO fights off a takedown attempt by Sakura ONISHI in the 59kg playoff. (Takeo Yabuki / Japan Wrestling Federation)

Onishi, currently a freshman at Nippon Sports Science University where Icho is among her coaches, made it as hard as she could, jumping out to a 5-0 lead in the first period with a pair of takedowns, the second off a nice ankle pick, and a penalty point for an illegal knee hold.

Onishi added a stepout to start the second period before Kinjo finally made her presence known, going behind for a takedown and adding a 2-point exposure to cut the lead to 6-4. From there, experience kicked in for the 29-year-old who captured back-to-back golds at the 2016 Rio and 2021 Tokyo Olympics.

"With a minute left, I thought that even if I was the aggressor, it would be to my disadvantage against an opponent who is a student and very lively," Kinjo said. "When 30 seconds, 20 seconds left, I put it all on the line for going to the World Championships."

With :15 on the clock, Kinjo got in on a single and managed to lift up the leg and expose Onishi's back with 8 seconds left, putting her ahead 6-6 on criteria. But Onishi squirmed back to her feet and with a mighty charge, went for a double-leg takedown that forced Kinjo out just as time expired. The referee gave her 1 for a stepout, but after an agonizing wait for the challenge review, it was nullified as Kinjo's foot was just centimeters from the edge when the clock hit all zeroes.

"I didn't have a strategy," Kinjo said. "Having wrestled for over 20 years, at my age, more than what move should I use, or how should I attack, the most important thing is being mentally ready."

jpn3Miwa MORIKAWA, right, keeps the pressure on Yukako TSUNEMURA in the 65kg playoff. (Takeo Yabuki / Japan Wrestling Federation)

Two days earlier, her sister pulled off a similar miracle to start her bid at 65kg, but couldn't make the magic last.

Tsunemura avenged a loss at the Emperor's Cup to Miyu YOSHIKAWA when, like Kinjo, she scored an exposure off a single leg in the final seconds for a 5-4 victory, after having given up a go-ahead takedown with :45 remaining.

But Tsumemura said she heard her knee pop in the match, and the subsequent pain hampered her in a 5-1 quarterfinal loss to Morikawa, who scored three stepouts in the first period and stopped a late front headlock roll attempt for a 2-point exposure. Morikawa went on to win the title, then defeated Emperor's Cup and Asian champion Mahiro YOSHITAKE 8-0 in the world playoff.

"Of course I wanted to go the World Championships, but this tournament was more about erasing the disappointing memories from the last year," Tsunemura said.

New Year of celebration, calamity

Like families throughout Japan, the Kawai clan had gathered for the New Year's holidays at the family home in Kanazawa, Ishikawa Prefecture, on the snowy northern coast of Japan.

On January 1, Yukako and mixed martial arts fighter Toshinori TSUNEMURA went to the municipal office in the nearby city of Tsubata and registered their marriage.

Four hours later, the ground began to shake violently.

The major earthquake that measured 7 on the Japanese intensity scale left over 200 dead and caused massive damage to homes, buildings and infrastructure, exacerbated by a tsunami and fires. Even now, thousands remain in temporary shelters.

"I'm not going to be so flippant as to say to people, 'I'm fighting hard, so please keep fighting,'" Kinjo said. "Their hardship is completely different. Many homes were destroyed and they can't go back. Someone near us had just finished construction of their house and it was damaged.

"But if [my winning] can give them some good news and it warms their hearts even a little, that would be good."

Tsunemura also was hoping to boost the spirits of her hometown.

"The big earthquake hit in January, but there are many people who suffered much more than me," she said. "Even if I lose, I think there are people who are heartened by seeing me give my best."

The sisters, who both went to then-powerhouse Shigakkan University in central Japan, currently reside in Tokyo. They train at Nihon University, where they are taking online graduate school classes.

Tsunemura said that in her studies of sports psychology, she uses her own notes on her mindset that she kept up to and during the Tokyo Olympics. She also said the program is giving her a broader outlook on life.

"Of course, I credit Shigakkan for making me strong in wrestling," she said. "But the daily schedule at Nihon University allows me to grow as a person. It has widened my view of the world.

"Wrestling is only something you can do when you're young, and the day is going to come when you call it quits. Your life after retirement will be longer. With that in mind, it makes me think that little by little I have to start looking ahead."

For now, the question of when -- or if  -- she will return to competition remains unanswered.

"I don't know when I will enter a tournament," Tsunemura said. "After the Olympics, I had come to despise wrestling, but I really like it. I don't intend to stop any time soon. I will let the injury heal and get back to practice, and if I want to compete again, I'll do it. I don't know whether I will have a match again, but I still like wrestling."

Kinjo, of course, has her dance card filled for October, when she will attempt to win her first world title since winning three straight from 2017 to 2019. (She also has a silver from 2015.)

Her appearance at the Asian Championships in April marked her first international match since the Tokyo Olympics, and as fate would have it, she was paired with China's Zhang right off the bat. The closeness of the loss reassured her that she could still be competitive.

"In the first round, I met the world champion from last year," Kinjo said. "Even though I lost, it was my first international tournament in three years since the Olympics, and it may be rude to say it, but I think it went better than expected. It made me think that I can still do it."

In hindsight, the defeat may have been a blessing in disguise, which was reinforced by her mother Hatsue, a member of Japan's team at the 1989 World Championships.

"Truthfully, if I had won the Asian title, it would have been a good way to go out. But I lost. I talked it over with my mother, and she said, 'You're going to keep going, right?' I felt that way, too."

Japan Wrestling Federation President Hideaki TOMIYAMA, a gold medalist at the 1984 Los Angeles Olympics, surmises that while motherhood may be an added burden for Kinjo, it is indirectly keeping her in the sport.

"It's likely that she wants her child to be able to see her mother during her career," Tomiyama said. "The Olympics was before she was born. Probably she wants to give the child something to remember. She can see with her own eyes and remember 'Mama was strong.' I think that's what keeps her going."

From the federation's perspective, having a past Olympic champion remain active is always a positive thing.

"Of course, her [making the national team] draws the attention for wrestling from the mass media," Tomiyama said. "Wrestling doesn't usually make the news. Becoming a topic of conversation is important. We're really happy to see her fighting on, and it will help in the spread of wrestling."

jpn4Moe KIYOOKA, right, works for a takedown in the 55kg playoff against world champion Haruna MURAYAMA. (Takeo Yabuki / Japan Wrestling Federation)

Kiyooka inspired by Paris-bound brother

Like Kinjo, Kiyooka went into the tournament as the Emperor's Cup champion, only to lose her opening match -- also to a high schooler -- and have her fate decided in a playoff. One big difference was the level of her opponent.

Having bounced back from an 11-9 loss to 17-year-old Sowaka UCHIDA, Kiyooka proceeded to defeat reigning world champion Haruna MURAYAMA (nee OKUNO) 3-2 in the playoff, thanks to a second-period takedown.

Kiyooka's win over Murayama was a repeat of the Emperor's Cup final in December and allowed her to join Ikuei teammate Ishii on the plane to Tirana.

In Albania, Kiyooka will get a chance to join the small group of wrestlers who have won world titles on all four age levels. She won the U17 gold in 2019, and then captured both the U20 and U23 titles in 2022.

Kiyooka, a winner at the Zagreb Open in 2023, made her major senior debut at the Asian Championships, where her gold-medal performance came a week before brother Kotaro won the Asian Olympic qualifier at freestyle 65kg at the same venue in Bishkek.

"Recently, my brother's accomplishments have been a source of inspiration for me," Kiyooka said. "I believe that if I keep fighting to the end, I know I can definitely win."

Ishii was coming off a heartbreaking, last-second playoff loss in January to Nonoka OZAKI for the 68kg spot in Paris -- which she herself had won for Japan by placing fifth at the 2023 World Championships.

Ishii swept to the Meiji Cup gold at 72kg with a 10-0 victory in the final over former world champion Masako FURUICHI. That gave her the ticket to Tirana as there was no playoff because Emperor's Cup champion Ayano MORO did not enter.

jon4High schooler Taizo YOSHIDA, top, tries to turn Yuji OKAJIMA in the Greco 82kg final of the Meiji Cup. (Takeo Yabuki / Japan Wrestling Federation)

Most noteworthy in the men's styles was the victory at Greco 82kg by 18-year-old Taizo YOSHIDA, who followed up his historic gold-medal run at the Asian Championships by becoming just the third male high school champion in Meiji Cup history.

One year removed from winning the world U17 gold, Yoshida defeated three-time former champion Yuji OKAJIMA 8-0 in the final, then earned the place at the non-Olympic worlds when Hayato TAKAOKA -- who beat Yoshida in the Emperor's Cup final -- defaulted the playoff.

Yoshida will be 18 years and 10 months old when the non-Olympic worlds starts, making it possible for him to eclipse Tokyo Olympic gold medalist Takuto OTOGURO as Japan's youngest-ever male world champion. Otoguro was 19 years and 10 months old when he won the freestyle 65kg gold in 2018.

"At the World Championships, I will give everything I have and aim for a medal," said Yoshida, who will precede that by also appearing at the world U20 in September. "I will be a senior in college at the time of the Los Angeles Olympics. I feel like the fight has just begun."

Three Asian medalists in freestyle also made the cut -- Masanosuke ONO, a bronze medalist at 65kg, earned the spot at 61kg; Yoshinosuke AOYAGI will go at 70kg, where he was the silver medalist in Bishkek; and 74kg champion Kota TAKAHASHI will aim to strike gold at 79kg.

Takahashi will be heading to Tirana early, as he will also compete at 74kg at the world U23 to be held there the previous week.

Trained in Japan and USA, Yoneoka hopes to coach Norway to global success

By Ken Marantz

TOKYO, Japan (July 20) -- Yurie YONEOKA has taken her share of knocks along her lifelong path in wrestling, but she always seems to land on her feet. This time it has planted her onto a second different continent.

Yoneoka, a Japanese who competed collegiately in the United States before becoming a coach there, has been hired as head coach of the Norwegian national women’s team, which hopes some of the success of her home country can rub off after decades of slim results.

Norway, which was among the top nations in women’s wrestling in the early 1990s, has not produced a women’s world champion since Gudren HOELE won the last of her five world golds in 1998 at 56kg, and its last world medal of any kind was a bronze in 2005 by Lene AANES at 59kg.

The 29-year-old Yoneoka was hired on an initial two-year contract, but with eyes on producing results at the 2028 Los Angeles Olympics. That’s a tall task in itself, as Norway has only had one woman qualify in wrestling for the Olympics in its history when Signe Marie STORE made the field at 69kg at the 2016 Rio Games but finished 18th.

YoneokaYurie YONEOKA talks with the press during a recent trip back to Japan. (Photo: Japan Wrestling Federation)

“We have a six-year goal which is Los Angeles [2028],” Yoneoka said during an interview in Tokyo earlier this month when she returned to attend a wedding. “But we have to take baby steps. So the first thing is to medal at the European Championships at the senior level, and the junior [U20] level as well.

“We will hopefully get a World Championships medal. That's the closest way to get to the Olympics,” she said, referring to the direct Olympic qualifying places available at the World Championships.

Yoneoka, who ultimately would like to land an executive position at United World Wrestling so she can advance the standing of women and Japan, found out about the Norway opening from a notice on the UWW website. She immediately applied and, after an extended interview process, was hired in June.

"At the time I was coaching at the university in the United States and I was looking to take a step up for a more high-level coaching job,” she says. “My [ultimate] goal in my life is working at United World Wrestling. So I was thinking what are the good steps to reach my goal, and I was thinking higher-level coaching would be a very good opportunity.”

YoneokaYurie YONEOKA addresses members of the Norwegian national team for the first time during a brief visit last month. (Photo courtesy of Yurie Yoneoka)

Norway has a current senior star in two-time European champion Grace BULLEN, but she has yet to meet expectations in terms of world medals and Olympic qualifying. Yoneoka said her focus will be more on developing the next generation of wrestlers.

“My main focus, which the federation asked me, is mostly on U20,” she says. “But I will do a lot of camps to collect the girls and bond together regardless of age. For U17 and U15, I will probably still coach and go to the competition if I am available, but not super-focused, more like support.”

Yoneoka is looking to centralize the national team operations in Oslo and has already set up a training camp for September. She has only briefly met team members and is still waiting for a work visa and a place to live.

Having been exposed to the sport both in Japan and the United States, Yoneoka feels she brings a broad perspective to Norway and can allow team members to find the style that best suits them.

“While making the most of each individual’s own style, I believe it is vital to add to what they do well, rather than completely change their wrestling,” Yoneoka said in an earlier interview on the JWF website. “Six years will go by before you know it. If there is even the slightest feeling of hesitation, the goal will get further away.”

Looking at the differences, “Japanese style is very focused on basics, and they have high technique. Very good conditioning,” Yoneoka says. “The American style is very powerful, with big dynamic movement. They love to show stuff. And they have a lack of conditioning. Of course, they haven't done a lot of freestyle, so that's probably one point. The European style is very mixed, which I would say is very balanced between Japanese style and American style.”

YoneokaYurie YONEOKA, center on right, poses with University of Providence teammates after placing sixth at the 2019 U.S. national collegiate championships. (Photo courtesy of Yurie Yoneoka)

Coming to America

Although Yoneoka never competed at a World or Asian Championships on any level herself, she was a better-than-average high school wrestler, placing third at the national high school championships in an era that would produce several future Olympic champions.

But later disillusionment with her college program in Japan set in motion a journey that would bring her to one of the most rural and off-the-beaten-path parts of America.

As with the Norway job, Yoneoka’s interest in a jump across the Pacific was sparked by an online notice, this one on the Japan Wrestling Federation website in 2013. There was a call out for Japanese wrestlers interested in competing collegiately in the U.S.

Behind the project was Tadaaki HATTA, a former NCAA champion and U.S. national team coach who has long served as a link between the two countries.

In the past, a few Japanese males like Hatta have gone over to U.S. universities, most notably Yojiro UETAKE, who went undefeated at Oklahoma State in the 1960s and became a two-time Olympic champion, and Sanshiro ABE, who won an NCAA title at Penn State in 1996 and competed at that year's Atlanta Olympics.

But Yoneoka still remains the only woman to take the plunge. And it was not easy getting there. Yoneoka first had to pass the Test of English as a Foreign Language (TOEFL), a formidable hurdle given that “[English] was the subject I always got the worst grade at school. I was always at the bottom in the class. So I literally started from the ‘This is a pen’ level."

Talk about perseverance. Yoneoka failed the test 14 times -- 14 times! -- over a four-year period before finally earning a passing score. During that time, she worked part-time jobs as a receptionist at a dry cleaning shop and as a staff member at Costco.

Yoneoka had been recruited to attend Jamestown University in North Dakota, and the school patiently waited for her to pass the TOEFL test. "We kept in touch and [the school] was always supportive of what I was doing," she said.

Unfortunately, after she finally to Jamestown, she was unable to compete in her first year for reasons she still doesn't understand. The next year, coach Tony DEAND took a new job at the University of Providence in Great Falls, Montana, and took Yoneoka with him. And once again, she was declared ineligible to compete for a season. When Deand left after just one season, Yoneoka remained at Providence.

While going abroad to study afforded her more freedom than she had back in Japan, Yoneoka became too busy as a student-athlete to get caught up in the social scene. "I didn't party a lot at all," she says. "I had to make money, too, because I didn't get a full grant. I had to work on campus at the Starbucks, for only like two or three shifts [a week]."

She described her routine as "morning practice, go to class, work and practice. That was it."

In the end, her junior year was the only one in which she had a full competitive season. She won titles at the Spokane Open and the Battle of the Rockies, then finished sixth at the 2019 Women’s Collegiate Wrestling Association Championships at 116 pounds (52.6kg). She was ranked third in the nation at 109 (49.5 kg) in her senior year, only to have the 2020 championships canceled due to the pandemic.

After graduating with a degree in sociology, she was hired as an assistant coach at Providence, making her the first-ever Japanese woman to coach on the collegiate level in the United States.

She says it was difficult to leave Providence and the team to take the job with the Norwegian team, but says the response was positive. "It was pretty hard, especially for girls who I built a really good relationship with," she says. "They were very sad, but they were happy for me that I got the job."

YoneokaYurie YONEOKA, second from right, stands on the medal podium after placing third at the 2010 Junior Queens Cup. To her right is champion Risako KAWAI, now a two-time Olympic gold medalist. (Photo courtesy of Yurie Yoneoka)

Sweet bribe launches career

Yoneoka’s entry into the wrestling world was basically the result of a bribe. The culprit: Her father. The enticement: Chocolate.

Born in Tokyo, Yoneoka’s family moved to nearby Kashiwa, Chiba Prefecture, while she was a toddler. Her father, who was a dedicated amateur handball player, was looking for a sport for his four-year-old daughter when he spotted a poster at the local civic sports center. It was for a local kids wrestling club.

“He was like, 'This is it,’” Yoneoka recalls. “But I was a very, very shy girl and he was like, 'Do you want to go because I will buy you chocolate.' And I love chocolate. So chocolate is the only reason I went into wrestling.”

She still remembers her first day in the sport. "It was a very hard practice. [My father] threw me into the practice, and I had to do the whole practice on the first day. I almost cried."

But with a mix of determination and stubbornness that would get her through trying times later in life, Yoneoka stuck with it and showed potential. She developed a love for the sport and continued until being forced to stop briefly because of one of Japan's main social problems -- bullying, which she suffered in junior high school.

"I got bullied heavily and I couldn't go to school for awhile," she says. "So I had to stop wrestling as well because the wrestling team was practicing at that junior high. A few months later, I just changed schools."

Determined to get back into the sport, she passed the entrance exams for Saitama Sakae High School in neighboring Saitama Prefecture. It is among the top schools for wrestling in the Kanto region, which includes Tokyo and the surrounding prefectures, but also one that is also academically oriented.

"I wanted to be the best wrestler that I could ever be, and my dream was to go to the Olympics, too," Yoneoka says. "[I thought], where can I go to achieve that goal? There were only a few selective schools in the Kanto area because [women's] wrestling was still developing.

"Sakae was a very good school which has a pretty good academic program, too. My parents only wanted me to put my best [effort] into both academics and athletics. [They said] if you go in the advanced program of study, you can keep wrestling. I studied and got into the school."

Aside from the curriculum, going to Sakae meant enduring another hardship -- a two-hour train commute from her home in Kashiwa. "Those three years were probably one of the hardest times in my life," she says. "Practice started at 7 [a.m.], so I had to wake up before 5 and hop on the train for two hours."

YoneokaYurie YONEOKA poses with members of Norway's U15 team. (Photo courtesy of Yurie Yoneoka)

In 2010, Yoneoka placed third in the U17 division of the Junior Queens Cup at 49kg, a weight class won by future two-time Olympic champion Risako KAWAI. The next year, she won a bronze medal at the National High School Championships in that weight class, which was won by Nanami IRIE, a future world silver medalist.

To get an idea of how competitive the 2011 high school nationals were, the champions of three other weight classes would go on to become Olympic champions --Kawai, Eri TOSAKA and Sara DOSHO. Yoneoka met Tosaka at a wrestling camp during junior high school and they remain friends to this day.

"That was really tough," Yoneoka said of the competition. "I was actually very insecure about my wrestling. It [gave] me the power to push through, that I had to be better every day. But I was insecure that I could make it."

While the Big Three would all eventually go on to collegiate powerhouse Shigakkan University, Yoneoka was pressed by her coach to stay in the Kanto region and attend Toyo University. She never fully fit into the program and, after an undistinguished three years, dropped out during her senior year after the opportunity to go to the States came up.

"The wrestling community is pretty tight, and my high school coach pushed me to go to Toyo University," she says. "I liked it as a university, but the team situation was not what I had imagined or what I desired. It wasn't the best situation for me as an athlete.

"I didn't regret quitting the team, but I had a strong feeling that I shouldn't quit wrestling itself. I was feeling devastated about wrestling. I was like, what should I do with my life? All I had done with my life was wrestling. In very, very good timing I saw the advertisement by Tadaaki Hatta."

Having seen their daughter spend the last six years or so in the United States, what did her parents think about her career path now taking her to Norway?

"My parents were first of all surprised," she says. "But they know even if they say something, I will still do whatever I want to. For my parents, it was like, 'Alright go ahead.'

"My friends were like, 'Norway? I thought you were living in the U.S. forever.'"

Yoneoka looks forward to that first time one of her Norwegian wrestlers faces a Japanese opponent on the mat.

"I feel like I will be proud of the Norwegian to be competing against a Japanese because obviously, the Japanese wrestlers are the best," she says. "But I think that will be good for me to learn some things as well, and I have so much respect for the Japanese wrestling federation and wrestlers. It will be a little bit nostalgic, but it will be a good feeling."

Looking at the big picture, it is also about gaining acceptance for women in the sport.

"In the States, there are still issues that women's wrestling gets really disrespected by men's wrestlers or even just men," she says. "It's a big issue and I feel like girls have to stand up for themselves still, which is pretty sad.

"In Norway, there is a big equality system, like men and women have to be equal. I think it's good, but still, in the wrestling community, it's a tough fight. Of course, I will stand up for myself and for my girls as well as for my future as a woman. That's one of my goals."